Still, I researched more about the subject, because I knew he was right on a basic level. Soon after, I realized, that I was growing up under a "narcissist". Still, what I have read about narcissists and stuff like that, I couldn't accept it a 100%, as an explanation to what I was going through.
So I researched more, and there came a point where I realized the truth: I wasn't growing up under a narcissist, but a psychopath. Still, almost everything they have written about narcissist fitted my biological father.
Now, years later, something strange happened to me. I am doing business, and I was talking to a client / friend. And there was an obvious situation where he did wrong things to me, and when I confronted him about it, he gave me a very strange reaction. I was talking to him loud, and I knew I was right, and the subject was strong. Still, he didn't give me any emotional reaction. He got defeated in the argument, but he didn't sound like that.
This, and the lot of knowledge I acquired about psychopaths and stuff, made me realize something: the guys who say that narcissist is not the same as psychopaths, are right. The difference between the two is not much, and they are almost the same creature from the human perspective, but there is a difference.
None of the two has emotions, both lack empathy, none of the two cares about you dying or crying or being hurt or any kind of suffering. Both manipulates people, and none of the two cares about the suffering they cause. Both has an abnormal, delusional, incurable, inhuman fantasy of being God-like creature who controls human beings. The difference is the intention: a Narcissist only cares about being God-like, and only causes hurt by accident, while the Psychopath, while also has this narcissistic delusion, it WANTS to hurt. That's it.