After suffering from DP/DR for 8 years, I think I've finally been able to see the forest from the trees. Right now I look at DP/DR not as something, but a lack of it. It is basically a state of non-living, lack of direction, lack of momentum, lack of life. This condition is far less complex, far less difficult to understand that sufferers often think. It is only the strangeness of it, the anxiety it causes, and the super-hight intelligence and creativity of the person that creates this mystic, giant, out-of-this-world state, which results in every single cell of your body and mind telling you you'll never ever get out of it.
And it's true, you can't get "OUT OF IT", because DP/DR in ITSELF is an "out of it" state. Out of life. So you need to get back IN LIFE, and DP/DR is gone. The solution is so simple and so easy that we miss it.
We tell ourselves things like these:
I believe the reason behind this is that ALL our lives our feelings kind of dictated our actions. We feel scared, our mind tries to find the reason. We feel happy, we know usually why and what to do. We feel anger, we know usually who we are mad at, or at least we think so. We feel hungry, we eat.
But DP/DR feels this whole system is messed all the way up. The first time in our lives we feel overwhelming feelings and have zero idea what they are, why they are, what to do about it, and on top of that, because of this "disconnection", we feel like we are even going mad, and no logical explanation can bring us out of the existential terror DP/DR causes / is.
Still, I tell you, DP/DR is NOTHING but a lack of life, lack of things to do, lack of momentum, lack of task or plan for the next minute. NOTHING more.
And it's true, you can't get "OUT OF IT", because DP/DR in ITSELF is an "out of it" state. Out of life. So you need to get back IN LIFE, and DP/DR is gone. The solution is so simple and so easy that we miss it.
We tell ourselves things like these:
- This is a feeling I not only never experienced in my life, but never even thought that such a state even exists, it HAS TO have a reason.
- This feeling is so overwhelming, so "spiritual", that this reason HAS TO BE deep and huge.
- I FEEL like it is the end of the world, so it must be true.
- etc..
I believe the reason behind this is that ALL our lives our feelings kind of dictated our actions. We feel scared, our mind tries to find the reason. We feel happy, we know usually why and what to do. We feel anger, we know usually who we are mad at, or at least we think so. We feel hungry, we eat.
But DP/DR feels this whole system is messed all the way up. The first time in our lives we feel overwhelming feelings and have zero idea what they are, why they are, what to do about it, and on top of that, because of this "disconnection", we feel like we are even going mad, and no logical explanation can bring us out of the existential terror DP/DR causes / is.
Still, I tell you, DP/DR is NOTHING but a lack of life, lack of things to do, lack of momentum, lack of task or plan for the next minute. NOTHING more.